12.11.07

So Long

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:18 am by Miracle ♪♫

Tonight I do not write the saddest lines, as Neruda would have done. I write because I have ceased dreaming and sense a certain freedom, yet the stars shimmer in the distance and my universe continues to brim with life. Howbeit I feel the need to be courageous enough to scrawl the last words that I’ll write for you.

I credit you no pain. You have caused me none. I afflicted the pains upon myself for the reason that I had to accept two realities, and these coupled maxims are the exact reasons why I never sought after you – being fully aware that I could have; 1. We had differing beliefs, 2. I respected your choice… but truth be told, your choice perturbed me. Not owing to who your choice is per se – or for
the fact that she hates me and my frankness, but because I can clearly observe that
you do not have the same beautiful impact or influence on her that you had on
me. God knows I do not hate her although human as I am; it came to a point where I felt I have had enough, and I’m not even proud of that. Then again, I
respect you and the friendship that we once had – the friendship that I believed
in so much, and the same friendship that until now, encourages me to strive and improve as a person.

Tonight, I do not write the saddest lines, because I do not have to forget and shun thoughts of you, confident of how pure they are. My soul is not pleased that it might have lost you, but my soul is happy because it once knew you… and tonight and for the other nights to come, I do not have to be pained recognizing that the simple act of knowing you is enough.

I have learned that with or without you, I am loved,
and I should behave loved  (and not as if I’m not), therefore I’m happy… and as my prayer is for every friend, I wish you the best of Love, Life, and Music.

Happy Holidays! =)

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