12.27.07
An Extraordinary Miracle
It is once again the occasion to wrap up another year, store it in the
recesses of my heart, and prepare ample room for the new one.
This has been one of my life’s most emotionally-racking years.
Unlike the new year’s eve of 2006 when I slipped away from
the crowd and shut myself in a room, switched the television to its maximum
volume while Beethoven’s Symphony No. 9 was being aired and closed my eyes as
the symphony’s climax joined the booming fireworks, 2007 was different.
As soon as January 1, 2007 dawned, Lola’s health wavered and
a couple of weeks later, her life ended while I held her in my arms. The two abrupt throbs that I felt as she pressed
her back on my chest – the same brusque throbs that ended her life, still affects
me. I break into sobs as I write. Ironically, my presence in her life’s finale
was also my consolation. I miss her… but
92 was a ripe age, and it was her time to leave. One can only accept her departure as part of life
and God’s divine plan.
As the other months trailed along, I regained something
valuable only to lose it again, I experienced believing in the wrong people, committed
a major blunder and along with that a myriad of small ones, but I also met and
mingled with wonderful souls, learned more about music, about friendship, about
trust, about love, about life. In 2007 I
cried a considerable amount of tears, but in the end, God also allowed my heart
to laugh even more, love more, and live more…
We cause ourselves tears, but God relinquishes them with
Joy. We afflict pain upon ourselves, but
He lavishes us with His Love. We die,
and He gives us His Life.
…and there is no better way to wrap up a year than to wrap
it with Thanks, just as there is no better way to unwrap a new one than with Thanks.
Life is a gift… wrapped up… I will open it up and find a way
to give some of my own…
because life is an Extraordinary Miracle.
A Blessed New Year to
All!
